Prodigal

[dejah_thoris]

After a long day in the forge, and a long night of pacing the corridors of the bar looking for Curtis, Dejah had come back to her rooms and tried to work on the prostheses.  She'd made significant progress, building the initial layer of isolates and imprinting the neurological signature she'd recorded the very first day onto the layer itself.  It took an incredible amount of focus and when she was done, she lay her tools on her work bench.  Bleary-eyed and exhausted, she made her way to the bed.


She didn't wake for many hours.  Not even the recurring image of Curtis's shy smile melting into the leering grin of Matai Chang could manage to stir her from sleep.  It was late in the day when she rolled over and peered at the window.  The sun was going down.  Or was it coming up? She couldn't tell.

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[2goodarms]

Once the kiss breaks, Curtis rests forehead to forehead with her, eyes still closed. The quiet returns, like the relief of crawling into bed after a long day. It's...he doesn't want to say peaceful. Peace went extinct decades ago.

But it's close.

"Thank you for doing this," he whispers.

[dejah_thoris]

Her hand finds its home on his cheek, strokes over his beard to come to rest on his shoulder.

When she speaks, her voice is equally quiet, almost reverent. "You're welcome. Thank you for letting me help."

[2goodarms]

He smiles as he finally opens his eyes. Pressing another brief kiss to her lips, he pulls back so he can retrieve the metal arm from his lap.

(Curtis is making a conscious effort not to think about moving the prosthesis. He imagines his left arm hanging limp, as still as if he'd dislocated his shoulder; he doesn't want a repeat of that moment when it twitched and jerked so far from his stump.)

Silently, he offers it back to her.

[dejah_thoris]

She takes it from him, deftly touching a series of points on the arm that make it go dark again. "Let me put this away. Don't go anywhere." Her tone was playful, not at all commanding.

She levers herself up off the couch, still favoring her right hand a touch. She returns the prosthesis to its stand and then comes back to sit beside him again.

[2goodarms]

Curtis, meanwhile, unhooks the pendant from around his neck. He presses it into Dejah's hand once she returns, curling his fingers around hers.

He seems content to stay that way a little longer, shoulder to shoulder, enjoying the quiet of the moment.

[dejah_thoris]

She covers the hand covering hers, and leans into him, resting her brow against his temple. She takes a deep breath and holds it for a moment.

"You keep this. Keep it safe. Don't let anyone know you have it, please."

[2goodarms]

There's a weight to her words he didn't expect. Curtis frowns, just a little, but murmurs, "Okay. I won't."

The letter; the book she gifted him in the forge; now the pendant. He's never needed a place to store things, because he never owned enough to require it. Maybe he should get a box from Bar. Something to stash under his hammock.

(Then again, considering Edgar grabbed the letter three seconds after Curtis left their room, maybe he should just keep the pendant in his coat.)

[dejah_thoris]

"If something happens to you again, I can use this to find you. And if you like, I can teach you to use yours to find me. It has other functions, too. This is mine."

She taps the silver cuff bracelet on her right arm. The one he's never seen her without.

[2goodarms]

"Oh." Soft, and a little wondering.

No wonder she wants him to protect it.

He looks down at the pendant. "Yeah, I'd like to learn that."

[dejah_thoris]

She watches him, content to lean against his side and just have a moment of quiet. Until a thought occurs to her. The corner of her mouth twitches up.

"Have you thought about what you're going to tell Edgar?"

[2goodarms]

Curtis mirrors her tiny quirk of a smile.

"Shut up and mind his damn business?" he says. Then, more seriously: "Nah, I already told him this might turn into a thing. I don't think he's gonna be surprised."

He nudges Dejah, just a bit.

"He thinks you're all right."

[dejah_thoris]

Her smirk becomes a proper smile, and she nudges him back. "Really," she drawls. "What changed his mind, I wonder."

[2goodarms]

"Because he's seen you." A little quieter, but no less warm. "How much you care about shit. About people like us."

[dejah_thoris]

Dejah's gaze drops but the smile doesn't fade. She catches his hand again, laces her fingers through his. "I think perhaps he sees how much I care about you."

[2goodarms]

Curtis shrugs, awkward again.

And then lets out a tiny snort of laughter. "So now that we've both had our friends threaten to kill us if we fuck this up..."

[dejah_thoris]

She chuckles, low and quiet. Her hands find the chain of the pendant and she gingerly places it around his neck again. Her arms settle around his shoulders and she bends her head to nuzzle his cheek,

"I promise, I'll do my best not to fuck this up. Or let my friends fuck this up." Playful as her words are, there's also a solemnity there. "I just want us to be able to talk to one another. Even when we're -- not at our best."

[2goodarms]

He nods. Dipping his head, Curtis kisses the underside of her jaw, then her neck.

"I don't want to fuck this up either," he whispers, breath warm against her skin. "I'm not good at talking. I'll try."

[dejah_thoris]

She tips her chin up, her head falling to one side in silent encouragement. Each breath she takes is shallow, but steady. Her hands cradle the back of his head, not guiding him, just resting there.

"That's all I ask. That you try."

[2goodarms]

That's all she's ever asked of him. It's still a marvel, that someone like her wants so little of Curtis: just his company, his effort.

He presses another kiss to her shoulder, and pauses there. "Want me to stay up here tonight?"

God knows he wouldn't mind.

[dejah_thoris]

She lets slip a breath that's dangerously close to a whimper. "I do, Goddess knows I do."

She pulls back to steal another slow, hungry kiss. When it breaks, she has to look into his eyes, has to see what he's feeling.

"Can you -- I mean? If we did, could we -- just sleep?"

[2goodarms]

...oh, that is not fair, after a kiss like that. Disappointment flashes across Curtis' face before he reins it in; he smooths his hand over her hair, nods after a moment.

"I can try that too." A beat, and the disappointment returns for a completely different reason. "Shit, I'll probably have to go check on Edgar at some point."

They just got through a jail sentence, and the kid didn't even want to be in separate cells for twenty-four hours.

[dejah_thoris]

She smiles, and laughs quietly in resignation. If he's paying attention, he'll see he's not the only one who's disappointed.

"Yes, it's probably best if we don't. For now, at least." She rests her brow against his, eyes closed, letting her breath come back to normal. "It's not that I don't want you. I do."

But she wants all the rest, too. And if she takes him into her bed without it, the cost will ultimately be far too high for her to pay.

[2goodarms]

"Yeah," he breathes. (It is hugely mutual.) "Just...wanna go slow. I know."

It sucks, but it isn't like they don't have the time. Milliways gives you nothing but time.

Curtis tips his head back to kiss her forehead. "Another night."

[dejah_thoris]

She leans into that kiss, her eyes scrunched shut, her hands fisting in the rough softness of his sweater. She doesn't have to explain, she knows, but she wants to. She wants to tell him this isn't just about going slow. It's about wanting something more than one night.

"Ten thousand nights," she whispers, folding him into another hug. It gives her just enough time to wipe her eyes and hope he doesn't hear her sniffle.

[2goodarms]

He hears her sniffle; his brow wrinkles, but he doesn't say anything. There's something private here, something he doesn't feel comfortable intruding upon.

Instead, Curtis hugs her back, tightly, hoping the gesture can transmit a sentiment he rarely feels comfortable saying aloud: It's going to be okay.